Taking a break from blogging wasn't as "hard" as I'd expected it to be, I thought back then that I was growing addicted but in fact it was just another excuse to waste time.
Finished exams..phewww, what a long journey that was. It was tiring, boring, frustrating and far from rewarding. In short, they were 5 months of an ever rising curve of such painful experiences as adding weight and feeling incompetent. Days and nights in monotonously repeated cycles. The peak was the end of the written exams. Fact: the big bulk is over. Reality:I can't feel the release just yet. Holding it in for another month until the endless oral and clinical exams are over, and by then I'd have become "comfortably numb".
I celebrate my freedom nonetheless.
I deserve a break, but how can that be with bro getting married in a couple of weeks' time???!
Work work work...chores, shopping, cleaning, dieting, exercising, driving, grooming....etc.
But it was well worth it, turned out to be the best night of my life to date :)
So now with that circus all over, I collapse..literally. Physically and mentaly..I don't feel like moving a muscle, nor working a single brain cell. Currently in the process of picking myself up and re-activating those atrophied social skills. It's a tough job!!!
I am exhausted. And I am not the same person. Something is happening inside of me, something that involves re-evaluating my current life, resenting most of it and embracing little. I ponder for hours on end, and I catch myself speaking my mind to one of my friends. It's been said that teenage is the most painful part of one's life, but I beg to differ. I admit to enjoying the pain, as vague as the outcome seems at the moment. It's a slow process, but I feel something is giving way. Sooner or later.
Speaking of teenage: Take That are back!!!!!!!!!!